Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Making My Way Back

I am slowly working my way back. It's been so hard. I'm resting and trying to reorganize my life. My house has fallen apart around me, but thankfully it's not horrible. Training my kids in the past to do chores has really helped. It's clean, but messy.
My focus for the rest of this week is getting back into a regular school schedule and working to get the school room/dining room straightened up and reorganized.
My heart is still very heavy on most days. I feel such a deep emptiness. I'm hoping that if I can get back into some sort of routine it will help some. I know the feeling will not go away and I will always be missing someone. I also know I am so thankful for the blessings God has given me. I really have no idea what I would have done if I did not have my kids to remind me of how much He has done for me. Miss Lily has been a pure joy through all of this. She makes me laugh every single day.
My Bible has been opened a few times lately. That's huge for me right now. We are back to doing family devotions in Romans at night and reading through Psalms/Proverbs in the morning.
Right now I'm just working to get through the days. It's rough but it's getting better.
I'll try to post tomorrow with some pics of what I can get done.
Ya'll be blessed!

1 comment:

Mrs. Trixi said...

I just read about your ectopic pregnancy. I am so so sorry for you loss. We have experienced a similiar loss lately and I know how unbearable it can be. Just remember that God works all things for our good even when we don't understand why or how. I will be praying for you and God Bless.